Choices

So I've been realizing lately how everything we do is OUR choice. (Perhaps I've been realizing it because its only come up like a million times in the last few days.) But really. I mean, I know that I always come up with excuses for things. If theres something I didn't do, I justify it. (and I'm not saying that not everything isn't justifiable, because I don't think thats the truth.--yes I do realize I have a double negative...just pretend you're reading it in Spanish and it'll all be alright.) But lets say I'm late for work in the kitchen (as I was this morning). Why was I late? Because I CHOSE to push snooze on my alarm when I knew that I needed more than 8 min to get read. It was my choice. And something else I've realized is that these choices that I make are usually ALL ABOUT MYSELF. In the case this morning, it was because I wanted to sleep some more. Yep, thats it. It was because I thought thats what I needed. Another example: I've chose to do other things than spend time with God. I've chose to go to bed (after being online for an hour or so) rather than read His Word. I've chose to do many other things during my afternoon break rather than spend time with Him. I've chose to spend time pondering on things that don't matter rather than praying to the only One who does matter. All of these I've chosen because at the time, thats what I thought was best for me.

Heres the question that echos in my head: Did Jesus not think it would be better for Him to not die on a cross? (yes, another double negative) Because He had the choice. He could have chose to think about Himself and decided to not go through all of the pain, shame, embarrassment, torcher, and suffering and just told God no, He didn't want to do it. He could have easily done that. But He didn't. He chose to think about me and every other person. The Son of God put aside Himself to focus on those in need, those who were dying. He knew that what He thought was not what was best. So what did He do about it? He did what He knew God wanted. He made that choice.

So what am I going to do? What choice am I going to make? I know that right now, I need need need to go dig into God's Word (my heart is dry). What choices am I going to make? Every choice we make affects who we are and who we are becoming. What kind of person do I want to be? I need to remember that I don't know whats best for me. Isaiah 55:9 "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts."

Two muffins were sittin in the oven...

So there were these two muffins sittin in the oven. One muffin looked at the other muffin and said, "Man, I'm freezing!" The other muffin said, "Will we be friends forever?" Muffin One replied without hesitation: "Yeah, man." Muffin Two began to think: "But what if when we get out of here we are stored in two separate containers?" But Muffin One didn't falter: "It won't matter. We'll still be friends."

Ahhhh the things one can learn from Muffin One...

Here's part of my heart.

Time's Secret (6-12-06)

there it is
stretchs as far as the eye can see
many line it
big, small just the same
some front porchs
some swingsets
all different in their own way
but all part of the street

one inparticular
recently built by strong hands
solid foundation
inhale the scent of newness
hear the giddy chatter
the sound of laughter
the fellowship of the body
sense the closeness of Christ

furniture in place
each room decorated beautifully
new appliances
all seems so perfect
time stands still
plans are made
visions of the future
things will stay forever

as it's passed
the sounds seem to fade
laughter is lighter
smell gone away
will it last?
the secret time only knows
when back again
the answer is known

just another house
however, not like the others
will its character change?
time's secret...

She Was Right...

So, this is what Heather told me sometime before I left school when we were talking about summer:

"you will get to points where you lie in bed and just long for your friends to be laughing beside you..."

Let's just say Heather's not a liar......I miss people soooooo much!!! Is it bad that sometimes little things like songs or phrases make me cry? I love my friends sooooo much!! Man do I miss them!!!

"And Everything's Right With The Summer Coming..."

Ok, so heres whats going on in my head. I'm not gonna lie; I was dreading summer. Not that I wasn't excited about working at camp, because I was sorta looking forward to it-well, I was looking forward to a pay check anyways, and not that I didn't wanna be at home either, because that wasn't it; I love my fam (plus I'm living at camp). Heres what I think my deal was: I think I'd become dependant on the monotaness expectancy of my life at school. My life wasn't boring, that wasn't it at all (I love life!!)! But I knew what to expect to happen every day. Yes, random things happened, and I didn't always-well, hardly ever- have a schedule. But I did, however, always have constants. I had become dependent on these constants and what they added to me, who I was, and how I acted. I didn't remember functioning without them, and, frankly, it freaked me out that I was going to have to. But then summer came, camp started, and I'm done with my first week. Let me tell you, if every week goes as fast as this one, I'll be back at school before I know it! The week FLEW!! Anyways, I've discovered that your constants just seem to change. They change as the songs change. I mean, some will always stay the same and never change, no matter what (ie-your friends..well, some of them) But I'm now really, really excited about this summer. This first week of camp was great (even though it consisted of MAJOR cleaning). So I'll end with the words of Clint Black "Everything's right with the summer coming." This summer is going to be good, wayyy good! And then, before I know it, I'll be back to the greatest place on earth!! (I'm not gonna lie, I do miss UE and my incredible Ace friends, but praying for them keeps us connected--so does facebook, phone calls, and letters/cards...lol!)